You are my cup of coffee
Palpitates my heart
Yet slowly killing me
You are my cup of coffee
Palpitates my heart
Yet slowly killing me
Kung sakaling aalis ka na, pwede bang isama mo na sa iyong paglisan lahat ng mga ala ala mong ibinigay sa akin? huwag kang mag-iiwan ng kahit anong pagpapanggap.
Kung sakaling aalis ka na, isama mo sa iyong paglisan ang malalamig mong kamay na minsan pa’y nagpainit sa akin. Wag mong iiwan, dahil mahal tanggap ko na sa tuwing hinahawakan kita ay napapaso ka na. Sa tuwing niyayakap kita ay nalalapnos ka dahil mahal tanggap ko na hindi ako ang hinahanap mong init. Nagkamali ka.
Kung sakaling aalis ka na, isama mo sa iyong paglisan ang mga patay na rosas, na nalunod sa tubig, natuyo sa init. Ikaw sana ang rosas ko. Dalhin mo lahat ng mga tuyong rosas dahil sawa na ako magdilig sa bulaklak na kahit kailan man ay alam kong hindi na muling uusumbong pa.
Kung sakaling aalis ka na, isama mo sa iyong paglisan ang mga matatamis mong salita na dati rati’y hinihintay kong marinig mula sa’yo. Huwag kang mag-iiwan ng bakas ng kasinungalingan na mahal mo ako at babalik ka pa dahil mahal ko alam kong gusto mo ng dagat pero patawad isa lamang akong ilog na pilit mang itangay ka sa agos ko ay hindi ka pa rin sasama.
Kung sakaling aalis ka na, isama mo sa iyong paglisan lahat ng pagpapanggap at pagkukunwari mo. Kung sakaling aalis ka na, huwag ka magiiwan ng kahit anong marka sa buhay ko. Kung sakaling aalis ka na, maaari bang huwag ka nang bumalik pa kahit kailan?
Sa unang pagkakataon, iguguhit kita sa paraang kaya kitang maalala sa bawat minuto. Iguguhit kita sa paraang kaya kong maalala ang bawat detalye ng iyong mukha. Iguguhit ko kung paano tumataas ang iyong mga kilay sa tuwing may hindi ka nagugustuhan, kung paano ang iyong mga mata ay nawawala sa tuwing ikaw ay tumatawa, kung paano ang iyong mga labi ay gumagalaw sa tuwing ika’y nagsasalita na kahit na paulit ulit lang naman ang iyong mga sinasabi ay pinagtitiisan kong pakinggan, kung paano ang iyong noo ay kumukunot sa tuwing inaasar kita. Iguguhit kita mahal ko gamit ang mga alaalang iniwan mo sa akin.
Sa pangalawang pagkakataon iguguhit kita sa paraang maalala kita sa umaga. Iguguhit ko kung paano ang iyong mga pisngi ay namamaga pa mula sa mahabang pagtulog, kung paano ang iyong buhok ay gulo gulo pa, kung paano ang iyong mga mata ay may muta pa na kahit na ganoon ay ang sarap pa rin titigan, kung paano mo hawakan ang iyong tiyan dahil ika’y gutom na, na kahit na tumaba ka pa, mas mahahalin pa sana kita, kaso mahal nagkulang nga pala ako. Akala ko nabusog na kita ng pagmamahal ko.
Sa pangatlong pagkakataon, iguguhit kita sa paraang kaya kitang maalala sa hapon. Iguhuhit ko kung paano ka inaantok tuwing alas dos ng hapon, kung paano ang iyong mga mata ay namumungay dahil ika’y antukin, kung paano ang araw ay tumatama sa mga mata mo, kung paano mo hawakan ang mga kamay ko nang mahigpit at sabihin sa aking mahal mo ako na para bang ipinapahiwatig nitong hindi mo ako bibitawan. Pero mahal ko, ako na lang ang nakakapit.
Sa pangapat na pagkakataon iguguhit kita sa paraang kaya kitang maalala sa dapit hapon. Iguguhit ko kung paano mo titigan nang may ngiti sa labi mo ang paglubog ng araw habang pinagmamasdan kita, kung paano mo ako yakapin at sabihing kasing ganda ko ang langit, kung paano ka kasaya at hinihiniling ko na sana wag na matapos itong araw na ito, kaso tapos na, iniwan na ng araw ang ang langit.
Sa panglimang pagkakataon, iguguhit kita sa paraang kaya kitang maalala sa gabi. Iguguhit ko kung paano ka naiinis, umiiyak, tumatawa sa mga teleseryeng paulit ulit lang naman ng kwento, kung paano mo nilalabanan ang antok mo matapos mo lang ang pinapanuod mo, kung paano ka nakakatulog sa kakanuod ng kung ano ano, kung paano mong iniiwang bukas ang telebisyon. Hindi mo sinara, natapos nang walang nagsara.
Sa huling pagkakataon, iguguhit kita sa paraang hindi na kita maalala. Iguguhit ko ang mukha mo sa paraang makakalimutan kita. Iibahin ko bawat detalye sa mukha mo, hindi ko na isasama ang nunal mo sa kanang pisngi, hindi ko iguguhit ang makapal mong kilay, kung paano ka tumawa, kung paano mo ako ngitian, kung paano mo ako titigan, kung paano mo ako tawaging ‘mahal ko’ hindi ko iguguhit ang mukha mo na may bahid na kasiyahan. Oo hindi. Kahit sana sa papel makita kong malungkot ka sa pagkawala ko. Sa huling pagkakataon, iguguhit kita saparaang hindi na kita mamahalin.
If ever Love failed to make us stay, you would remember me in everything that you will do just like what I’m feeling for you everyday, how I see you in everything I do.
When you wake up, you would miss my good morning messages that always reminds you to eat well, to stay safe and to have a great day.
When you’re about to sip your coffee, you would remember me for I’m not allowed to drink that and you were always there to say no. But by that time please know that I would be drinking black coffee just to stay awake and to avoid you in my dreams.
When you’re about to eat your meal, you would remember how I always annoy you to eat more than you wanted because I want you to be huggable. You would lose your appetite just the thought of me being gone. But please no, I would be sad. Please eat well.
When you’re about to go to school or let’s say to work, you would miss my endless “please be safe, message me when you’re already there” messages.
When you’re about to look at our old pictures, you would notice how happy we were before and you would regret and wonder what happened to us.
When you’re about to listen to my voice messages, you would realize how lucky you were that I was so inspired to sing for you, you would miss those laughters between my songs, how I was out of tune and how I was stuttering.
When you’re about to study, you would miss my reminders to you to study well and don’t play video games till you’re not finsh. I would still know that you would still choose to play first before to study, I know you that well.
When you’re about to play video games, you would miss being irritated because there would be no me that annoys and floods you messages that keeps on telling you that you’re not making me your priority.
When you’re about to open your social medias, you would miss how your notifications were flooded . They would be empty for no one is flooding you anymore.
When you’re about to make a poem, you would miss how I wanted to recieve many from you, by that time you would be full of ideas but you have no one to give those to.
When you’re about to read our old conversations, you would miss me, you would miss how sweet I was before, how I managed to tell you how much I loved you.
If ever you feel down and lonely, you would miss how clingy I was to you, how I told you things that you’re not a failure, that you were a blessing to me, that I was there for you. I meant those words.
When you’re about to sleep, you would miss my good night messages telling you to sleep tight, have a sweet dreams, and dream of me. You would be a awake for hours thinking how am I doing now or do I even miss you.
If you ever really miss me, just let me know, I’m just one call away, I might tell you I miss you too.
And when you’re about to realize that you still love me, you would miss me, because I would be gone by that time for you just have realized it too late.
Don’t make me fall in love with you. We would always go to the nearest beach or bay just to see the sunset. I’ve always wanted to watch how the sun sets but ’till now I don’t have the chance to see that or maybe because kismet already planned that date to be special with my love.
Don’t make me fall in love with you for I would always get jelous whenever you talk about your past relationships, just forget them, let’s make our own memories.
Don’t make me fall in love with you. I would expect gifts from you on our monthsaries, anniversaries, birthdays, Christmas and so on for those dates are special to me.
Don’t make me fall in love with you because I would always give you crafts and small efforts like poems and love letters though it’s just an ordinary day.
Don’t make me fall in love with you.
I would always want to receive poems and love letters from you ’cause I love how words can express your feelings for me.
Don’t make me fall in love with you. I am attention seeker, I would get mad if I can’t contact you, If I can’t reach you. I would get angry just because you are not replying that fast, I would think that there are things that are more important than me.
Don’t make fall in love with you. I would always ask you how your day was and I would want to know if you misses me or is it just okay with you not seeing me.
Don’t make me fall in love with you, I would notice all your changes from our first conversation to our latest one, from all your efforts before up to now, I can’t help but to comapre those doings. I would get upset because I’ve known that you’ve became less romantic or so what. I can’t help but worry if you still love me or not.
Don’t make me fall in love with you, I can be the clingiest and possessive girl that would always demand your time. I wanna talk to you all day, I want to be with you all day to the point you would get annoyed because I’m disturbing to your life.
Don’t make me fall in love with you. I would love you more than I could love myself and you would just get irritated to me.
When love arrives,
All those petty things,
Would be pretty things,
All those bored minutes
Would be momentous
All those trifling lines
Would have a lasting importance
All those small details
Would be very unfrivolous
All those aching stings
Would be joyous butterflies
All those casual dreams
Would be unwitting thoughts
All those set fete
Would be just spontaneous sashays
All those ordinary walks
Would be exceptional memories
All those small talks
Would seem long conversations
All those conscious frownings
Would be oblivious smiles
All those uncontrolled cryings
Would be insensible laughs
All those unconstrained anxieties
Would be a haven like happiness
When love arrives,
All those loves for favorite ones
Would be just for YOU.